Friday, July 19, 2013

A rough week but God is in the midst of it all :)

I started feeling sick about a week ago.  I am totally the kind of person to just suck it up and push forward and pretend that I'm not sick.  But finally Wednesday morning after having a very feverish night and a temp of 103 I decided it was time to go to the Dr. 
I made my way to the clinic, the sun beat down on me but I still shivered and had goosebumps (never ever thought I would feel cold in the Philippines hahah)
The Dr. took one look at me and wanted to put me on an IV to get the meds into me quickly, I said no, I hate needles and I certainly didn't want to have to stay in the clinic for the next four hours waiting for the IV to finish.   I begged the Dr. to give me oral antibiotics and promised I would come back the next day if I wasn't feeling any better.
Twenty minutes later I walked out with five different prescriptions, ayayayay.
I went home to rest and looked at my phone and found I had a text message from my mom.  She was letting me know that my dear Grandfather had been put in the ICU and that it was not looking good.  That was the last straw.  Suddenly the tears came like a flood....Big sloppy tears chasing eachother faster and faster down my cheeks and dripping soundlessly onto the floor.  I cried for my Grandpa, I cried because I'm thousands of miles away and I just wanted to be with him and hold his hand and tell him how much I love him just one more time!  I cried because suddenly I missed my family and I just wanted my Dad to give me a big bear hug and tell me everything would be ok-  And of course when you're sick everything in life appears ten times worse than it really is....And then just when I thought I was all finished I started all over again!  The truth is sometimes tears are the best medicine.  I didn't have any words just a whole lot of grief in my heart that needed to makes it way out through my eyes.  Thank God for tear ducts.

But in the midst of all of this God is so faithful.  Yesterday I randomly saw this on the web.  As soon as I read it I just knew that it was a special little kiss from God to me to encourage me to keep my head up.

    "God is within her, she will not fall"


Then this morning I was having my devotions and reading in Psalms and I came upon the exact same verse but I didn't realize it was the same one because my bible is a different version. My version read- "God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved. God shall help her just at the break of dawn" Psalm 46:5  I got so excited and underlined the verse and wrote my name where it says "her".

Then I opened up one of my friends instagram pages today and read the exact same verse!!!  That was when I decided to look up the reference and realized it was the exact verse I had read this morning!!!!  I was so encouraged!!!  I know that there is a reason that that verse has shown up three times in the past two days.  God knew/knows just what I needed/need.

Please continue to pray for me as I am still feeling sick.
Tomorrow I will return to the clinic for further testing because my fever continues to come and go.
Love to all!